Am i a faliure at life?

You are NOT a failure at life, you sound like you have very low self esteem i used to feel exactly the same, get a councilor that will really help you in realizing how great you truly are ! if not then just research some stuff on self esteem online, believe in yourself you are just as great as everyone else.. don't point out your mistakes and flaws look for the positive things you do.. im a girl and i think your a lovely guy and i don't even know you! also, you will find something you're good at don't give up hope!